Able Stephens Log 30/11/25

Off to work today caught taxi normal weird crap - camouflage bird hiding playing the trumpet

weird some birds were lineing up in front of the ladybirds house at first I thought they were going to line up in a line lol.. but then was disappointed then saw them in 112 formation from what I could see from next to this weird camouflage trumpets

so google searched on my mobile and it said psalm 122 - something to do with ascent.. wtf.. bird psalm - then thought did that really happen wtf.. weird stuff going on here...

wtf... weird with the indian bloke saying blessing blessing blessing yesterday - when the teeing off enjoyment compulsion stopped.. when what do you want from women what do you want from women - all i feel like i want is to tee off.. weird.. I can feel hitting the ball the ball flying and the beautiful flight of the ball - anyway when I said the indian blokes moans changed to Blessing Blessing Blessing ... etc and I could feel my compulsion desolving.. wtf..

Today 9ish attended Mums ward - mum had eaten nice indian lady nurse said she had fed her etc, juice and water left - tea bought twice for her in the morning. mum drunk her tea only a few sips each seemed happy listened to her breath and no crackly bubbles ate lunch listened again no crackles - thankyou God. Anne arrived all good. Same mashed up food - Anne said to the lady she was going to photo graph the food and asked if she could photo graph me as well - I didnt want nothing to do with it so said no - said such as good photo - etc.. lol.. didnt want to set her off so didnt say anything weird. Went out side for a few times when they were changing mum. When first arrived and the lady left drinks - voice said Guiloteen - so I started talking in a french accent calling mum Madam - but voice said call her Madammoiselle - anway soon forgot about that weird crap and tea lady changed to lady with a french accent - pretty cool wanted to ask her how to say a cup of tea for you lillian but thought about all the weird stuff going on so kept it professional and didnt say anything. Anyway Anne eventually showed up. After anne showed up they said something about changing mum or something so I left them for privacy and went downstairs - very quiet etc bloke pointed to midland gate - I rested for a while and set off all morning voices saying what do you want from English woman what do you want from Woman what do you want for Australians what do want from White Woman What do want from Indian Woman - I kept saying THou shall not want I dont want anything - thou shall not want - as figured out by now just Wan and Naw - Nur - the Light and want - plus saw lady as sat resting before walking to midland gate or on my break walk towards the Hospital with a bag saying Swan Valley - S Wan Valley - then thought wtf.. walking toward me the turning to starboard carrying her brown swan Valley bag - thought turning to starboard - Morroco like a Star a symbol hieroglyph representing a God countries that have stars on them are probably some God representation so turning to god etc 23rd Psalm. Anyway then further affirmed my I shall not wanting - didnt buy lunch again - age bread without butter that I had brought in so that I did not it. a couple of slices walked to Midland Gate and thru to coles saw the boxes by the good court empty boxes and affirmed again saying I shall not Wan as I looked into the golden empty boxes and the Ptc store Pt 3 and said I shall not wan and lol.. continued unhindered into coles and said to I'll buy four monster Drinks which is Minister without the letter ones in it and instead with a zero initially I was thinking I just buy Monster drinks that I shall not want buy probably I cant say what the reason - but something that wouldnt be one... anyway walked home by the same way I came without wanting. Saw the entrance to the Hospital an Arch with Main Reception - and thought MN plus AI in the middle so the love of Men - Philadelphia brotherly love - but more specifically the Love of Chinese Men as AI is chinese but was thinking more etherial love rather than physical. But said to myself was not excluding what other type of love but just nothing to do with my etherial Love towards chinese men.. anyway got on with the visit went up started saying thou shall not want - Anne was ok. Everything was ok. Then later in the day things went downhill when they changed Nurses and anne started saying the photo she had brought in which was up on the top of board was of Ethel - and then started talking about Nanna's cousin - thought wtf.. started saying some thing or other - then lady came in and asked what nanna want to drink decided to listen and see wtf.. was going on then no answer for a while then nanna said coffee and then off they went.. with a coffee and two sugars. Then I said something to anne to do with whats this cousin stuff and why are suddenly changing the picture to Ethel anyway - who the fek cares the females came in to do another change of a nurse called Shirley came in Anne said Im so proud of you and kissed mum and I said something like this is about caring for our mum not for interfering with her identity - and said something like this is to do with our trans sister in law Shirley - the shirley had left and gone into the adjacent ward - where some weird chick was pretending to be possed early and saying in a weird voice Fiji and some crap.. lol.. or maybe was really transmitting some thing. Heard a voice which I thought to be the nurse saying yount going to pin this on me so thought about maybe pinyatta or soemthing mexican anyway - I knew she was doing this crap on purpose - and they had another change probably calling change - fekked off. Anyway Later Anne started feeding Mum saying. Anyway an left something weird was going on with two small cups of medicine one very runny that of a similar type we had been feeding mum with a spoon Anne was putting without a spoon so I said I'll do it and she was squeezing the other medicine into saying something weird.. didnt worry me didnt seem to be thin like first and was immediatily giving her water to drink without waiting - so I said stop pretending to force feed - I'll feed her then she without putting in much effort pretended to be pissed off and left - horray - but then mum rejected her meal - saying something similar to the bloke on strafford street - then I thought wtf.. the Quest - wtf.. as someone ew back in the house has been using shirleys voice and Ive been saying Ive got nothing to do with her fek off or what ever then someone saying its the queen - something to do with nickname or something but Im a bloke - weird whistle started in my right ear.. when I wrote that powerful control identity probably - anyway - Im not interested in someone interfering with my gender - dont interfere with other peoples genders. someone making life threat now in a male voice - possibly to mum. possibly to anyone - fek knows why they bother - which is weird as thats what I heard after I told the shirley lady that she came back and wasnt agro or anything as I hadnt confronted her - saying Im leaving mum said she didnt want her dinner - thought wtf.. is this identity Friedja - could be something to do with volcano in europe and famine - one of the voices other then what do you want from women what do you want from indian women what do you want from white women - Anyway - pretty certain that they are looking for a famine answer to what do you want from feminists - so I normally say to their repetitive quesition - something to do with friedja and the famine or no famine whatever. Anyway today they probably punished me by cool psych food block on mum.. wtf.. and even were able to control the drink that mum asked for.. from tea to coffee... wtf... then she didnt seem to drink that either.. now blokes voice saying shut up and drop dead.. wtf... so anyway.. control appears complete.

bloke saying now Im not telling you to drop dead.. must have changed his mind - could be to do with beauty or something.. drop dead gorgeous.. weird.. lol...

Trying to remember to continue saying I shall not want to continously to all the quesions to morrow I shall not want then I negate the anti light nur - fek I should apologise to all these chicks or something - fek knows they're probably feeding mum after I leave or something if this is all fake force feeding and shit.. weird... wtf.. forgot what Im doing now.. some fekking grasshopper transmitting - could be time block biological dr doo little transmissions.. got to concentrate on getting my stuff cleaned for going tomorrow. Some fekking top class voice was saying I apologise in a female voice - thought could be Apollo plus Ge - but then looked at the word typed out probably just Apollo or could be gee when I think about it - fek I cant even say I think - cause thats anti I dont wan - cause thats wan - wtf.. time to go get some myself ready - cant even be ready.. wtf.. cause its red.. -- weird plus bloke that said what mum said is from strafford st plus quest is on straffor d street - and the quest has queen in it plus est - wtf.. could be the founders -- no wonder Apollo could probably destroy a fair bit.. lol... maybe was going to say God have Mercy but thats probably One...? weird but I dont think it'd be anti thou shall not want - because its God..

Weird remembered was talking to the Ew in my head bout Going to heaven and Mohommed Ali because if you name your son - or presumably yourself Mohommed you are guaranteed to get into heaven - and weirdly he was the heavy (heavy) plus N which represents water which is Wai weight champion of the world.. cool... wtf... guaranteed to heaven... Maybe why the apollo statement today..

Wtf.. they could be using my sister against her own mothers dying breath.. wtf.. maybe repetitive ew programing slamming doors then musso islam name police office died out side the house that hannah chick photo graphing the middle door from her car with the delivery then black eye hannah chick the next day.. this shit is real.. wtf... the sadness on mums face at the controlled hunger - it only one night soon be tomorrow morning and I'll be there tomorrow morning in a jiffy.. wtf.. maybe thats why someone keeps repeating you'r dying - I think it means punishing some english?? fek knows.. wtf..