1st Dec 25 cool water vs warm water interpretation

went today to visit mum again Monday - not much going on outside when watching birds etc. just a butterfly blown around in the wind above the Lady who looked/looks like the Queen. not sure if she still looks like the queen or if she ever looked like the queen at this point - with all the weird trumper fucking birds etc.. taxi picked this biological organism known as Stephen Nabulivou up and drove him to midland drove past a company called 3ird - name has no wan it ?? and above was a plane banking to its left adjusting its course no doubt would bank to both port and starboard during its journey. Or left or right. remembered it as I started the log and continued from the butterfly to the journey. Was quite tired but remembered Lillian Pearson my mother in her bed sick and elderly or was reminded by voice in my head when seated outside the hospital. Went up she looked even more tired and hopeless then me - had had breakfast - and something to drink - tried to make her comfortable on the bed - someone remote adjusted the bed after I un tightened her in z like position on the bed probably good for her didnt know that elderly lay in z like formation until you actually see them weird.. anyway - after I had adjusted her bed some one remotely controlled the bed weird lowered it to the flat position - and she looked comfortable dont know which or both are better as I dont know anything about beds and medical stuff. anyway - normal stuff - just interesting the remote flat bed stuff. no bubblyness in her breathing - babys breath flowers from my Sister on her table which I showed her and she smiled several times she kept smiling each time and when I leaned forward to listen to her breath she kissed my cheek.. I told Anne and not sure if did it too to but put my hand near her mouth to wipe away some food color and she kissed my hand - I love her at least today was no weird crap. Went outside for break after anne arrived a blind lady was walking to wards the lift so I pressed the button on the lift and helped her to ward the entrance as - I was repeating the lord is my shepherd I shall not want - and was probably under the control of some hospital religious theolgisty and if I help her I become a shepherd - could be a German Shepherd or something anyway helped her into the lift and had been worried about my breath as my mouth was dry so asked her if my breath smelled - at first she appeared quizzical but explained myself as German Shepard - (I hadnt realised I was a german shepard at that point) I said I was trying to find out as I was in the ward with nurses etc, anyway she said no in a really polite way.. got out of the lift she didnt need my help and I wandered off somewhere - sat down or stood up somewhere against the wall then walked down to the toilet cleaned my mouth tongue etc after using the urinal then went somewhere. Sat outside of the hospital voice asked me why I helped her - didnt have a reason at that point - but soon found out that it was because the lord is my shepard any way I thought for a second that I was a lord but then Anne arrived later with lunch as was talking about dog or something and said lets go - I instead thought of Go-iear village or something if fiji and that the word for dog in Chinese or something is Go started talking bout the villagers bringing a lady to our house possesed with a male voice and throwing blokes about - weird wtf. and dad prayed for her and she started talking in a blokes voice anyway - originally I thought dad had the power thru gods blessing but now after thiking about the name of the joint am skeptical of a cult within or a govt parapsycholical unit operating within the area - weird remember went into the village was playing with some of the village kids and they all pulled out their penis to pee like the photo of the german soldiers peeing together in a long line and I didnt pull out my penis as I hadnt grown accustomed and one of the boys said is something wrong with your penis.. weird.. hahaha.. funniest stuff I ever heard off.. anyway there was something wrong with my penis it turns out but I didnt know at that point is that weird - and even the word point is weird in relation to penis - I remember the bloke who asked me the funniest friend who lived outside the village on the street. With a Royal Name - God blessing upon him - weird I became fat he still looks as he did on the internet - one of the friendliest people ever. Anyway went to midland still trying to continue as previous with thou shall not want purchased Monster drinks x 8 in total and walked back noticed circle in front door which I was happy as blokes voice was saying right right right right etc and I imaged walking clockwise in a circle then thought of a clock and then there it was plus also the representation of zero and I shall not want anyway did not want purchased monster I do not want drinks and returned to mum - probably sat outside and someone was said your walking slow in fijian I approached the hospital sounds stopped as I passed the crossing saw a woman walking slow from the front door then noticed other people walking slow - imagined the world in slow motion etc went into the hospital thru main reception didnt use the toilet not sure why?? slow motion fek knows or was I supposed to have a slow motion went up that was when anne was there probably anyway an OT lady visited - the Speech Pathologist had visited previously worked in time backward forward - then Nurse called Bella visitied again - nice lady thought of her name as a warning but was at the time saying open to interpretation - and had on previous visit had thought of her as Beauty then Visit by various medical professionals after anne told me her phone had run out of battery or something so Searched for my phone in bag as they arrived and John called on my phone and then spoke with him as he is providing transport - thought of him as mr transport as he now drives a train flys a plain and drives a car wtf.. weird.. plus had transformers as a boy and still has them.. was drained at that point luckily Anne was listening to the Meeting with Drs Nurses besides her plus possibly the OT lady.. Remember now she had a solution for John to pick me up and drive us to the D/L place and find out my expiry date for my DL license for so that he could lend his higher car to drive to drive whilst he was away at the Mine - anyway got the expiry date and eventually drove back home where I was exhausted am no sitting in front of the computer having deserted my sister at the hospital anyway was glad john drove me home as asked to slow down besides the RSL as want to see the spelling of the RSL Bellevue thought about open to interpretion and not just looking at women or what ever but as a warning bell and a view and about the corner past there before balmain st and the flowers representing the dead persons remembered there. Now im fecked and tired and saw a small amount of oil at the end of the driveway so told john dont go the driveway oil just before the edge but it wasnt his car. Feel sorry for Anne looking after mum alone in the heat - because John would have gone home to rest as he has to go home tomorrow - weird - john bought in a box of quality streets that looked like Bagua mirror - and all this weird Bellevue RSL and dangerous corner stuff before Balmain..

God protect John within the world of streets transports and mirrors - luckily he has a camera when reversing ..

Voice said its ok to write his name as S/o pretending the blokes Royal name was william now saying it was william so that young fijian boy pissing in Goiaear or what ever its spelling is was Alipate - Albert - didnt want to get him in trouble as he was just a little boy saying something that meant nothing that I remembered, went to work at the tax office in hurstville some bloke beside me with a face that had been injured caving, massive facial damage dont know what his name was started talking about his Prince Albert or something or some one with a prince albert so I remembered and decide to write it here in case I want to remember later - weird some other dude called rocky - maybe fell on the rocks sad - always wondered if Rocky was still alive as he had the worst smoking habit.. then thought I saw his lookalike walking down the street on Pine Gap.. wtf.. possibly made the Journey West.. but everything is open to interpretation .. weird.. very fecking weird open to interpretation world.

Weird thought about Anne telling Noelene that her friend wholived the next street up from our street on the hill above Goiear or what ever is the correct spelling - that noelenes childhood friend from highschool has had a double masectomy.. sad and I was thinking - scary image if it was that extreme of a cult and they someone didnt know that they wa able to possess women with men and they even give a women a masectomy.. wtf.. .. selling her house then to banb had different cancer - Gorgeous chick with an American Accent - Kalara.